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Titel
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Pantyhose
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Beskrivning
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“I was a friend to all of the girls, we even went to the toilet together in school as girls do. And I looked like a girl. I was thin, had long hair. And my only toys were dolls.
When my parents went out I often wore my mother's dresses, shoes, and lipstick. Then I had beautiful lips and long hair made from pantyhose that I put on my head.
All is perfect in childhood. Life is fun and carefree. But when getting older, the problems arise. My body and voice changed, I really didn’t like it. I was annoyed, I often cried.
One day I told my parents that I wanted to change my sex. My mother said that if that’s what I’ll do, “then we’ll reject you, and you better not come back home”. She also said; “I do not want to live with the shame that my son who was a boy 31 years, then became a woman”. She advised me to go to a psychiatrist.
But I'm not mentally ill. I could be in harmony with my body. I have a dream, to wake up one day in a woman's body, as if I was a woman from birth and life before would just be a dream that would eventually be forgotten.
In my heart I carry pain and sorrow, no one sees me cry and nobody hears, because I constantly have to hide, to be who I’m not. I am tired of living such a life. I so want to feel happy. I want to be loved and to love. My story isn't over yet.”
From the archive, original quote.
